你肯定看不出来　You’d Never Know

Today, give a stranger one of your smiles.It might be the only sunshine he sees all day.

～H.Jackson Brown, Jr.

I was back at the radiation lab. It was time for my yearly heck-up.

Sitting there in the office, I remembered the cancer treatments, and the first time I had walked into the lab. My legs felt like tissue paper.I had looked down the long hallway and could only imagine the torture due me.This was a world I never expected to enter.I felt nothing but fear for what lay ahead.

What lay ahead was not as bad as I thought. In fact, the experience brought the unexpected reward of self-discovery.But I didn't know it then.All I knew was that I had been operated on for cancer and now was to undergo five weeks of radiation.My mood showed in my appearance.No make-up.No interest in the clothes I had put on that morning.No smile on my face.

A stunning woman had walked into the building as I waited for my treatment. Stockings, suit, hat, make-up；impeccable.

“I'm here for my check-up，”she said, smiling.

I turned to my husband.“You'd never know，”I whispered. She had cancer and she looked beautiful.She had undergone radiation and she was walking, talking, smiling, and joking with the receptionist.She was a survivor.I was grateful to see her face and to hear her cheerful voice.It made my legs stronger when it was my turn to go inside for my treatment.I resolved right then and there to someday have her attitude.“I'm going to do for someone else what she has done for me，”I vowed to myself.

Now it was one year later. I was back for a check-up.

“How are you doing?”the receptionist asked.

I had dressed in my special clothes. I had washed my hair and carefully applied my make-up.I had been determined to look my best.My new“after cancer”attitude was obvious.

“You look great，”she said.

A man was sitting to my right. His face was pale and lifeless.He owned the tissue-paper legs.I knew it was his first time.You could tell.He looked at me for a long time and I knew what he was thinking.I sent a smile his way.His face brightened and he returned it.

I had done my part.

～Harriet May Savitz

今天，对一个陌生人微笑一下。

这可能是他这天见到的唯一一缕阳光。

——H.小杰克逊·布朗

那天，又该进行年度体检了，我来到医院的化疗室。

坐在医院候诊室，我开始胡思乱想，想到了治疗癌症时的场景，想起第一次来化疗室的情景。我双腿发软，望着长长的走廊，想象自己将在化疗室遭受的种种痛苦和折磨。鬼才想来这个地方呢，我对接下来的体检提心吊胆。

其实，接下来的体检并没有什么大不了的。检查结果出乎意料地证明，我已经康复了。但是，在候诊室等待的时候，我还不知道体检会是什么结果，只知道自己刚刚做完癌症手术，现在得做五个星期的化疗。我的心情全都通过外表体现了出来：没有化妆，着装随便，板着个脸。

就在我候诊的那会儿，一位光彩照人的女士走了进来。只见她打扮十分讲究：一身正装、衣帽整齐、丝袜得体、化妆细腻。

她满面笑容地说道：“我是来这里做体检的。”

我把脸转向老公，跟他嘀咕道：“你肯定看不出来。”那位女士身患癌症，但是依然光彩照人。她刚刚做完化疗，但是还能和医院接待员谈笑自如，真是一个“乐天派”。我有幸看到她的笑容，听到她欢快的声音，心里不禁有了几分感激之情。轮到我进化疗室了，我的腿不再发软。就在那一刻，我暗下决心，决心有朝一日也要有她这样豁达的态度。我对自己说：“这位女士给了我莫大的启示和鼓舞，我也要去鼓舞和感染其他人。”

一年过去了，我又到医院做体检。

接待员问我：“您现在感觉好点了吗？”

去医院前，我特意挑了一身衣服，洗了洗头发，还精心化了化妆。我下定决心，这次要把最美好的一面展现出来。我的这种“癌症后新心态”溢于言表。

接着，那位接待员说道：“您的气色真好！”

在我右边坐着一位男士。他面无血色，苍白无力，两腿发软。看得出来，他肯定是第一次来做化疗。他久久注视着我，我知道他心里在想什么。我冲他笑了笑，他脸色一亮，也冲我笑了笑。

我实现了自己的决心。

——哈莉特·梅·萨维茨