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A child’s clutter awaits an adult’s return
1 I watch her back her new truck out of thedriveway. The vehicle is too large, too expensive. She’d refused to consider apractical car with good gas efficiency and easy to park. It’s because of me, Ithink. She bought it to show me that she could.
2 "I’m 18," she’d told me so often that myteeth ached. "I am an adult!"
3 I thought, is that true? Just yesterday you watchedsome cartoons. What changed between yesterday and today?
4 Today she’s gone, off to be an adult far away from me. I’m glad she’s gone. It means she made it, and that I’m finally free of 18years of responsibilities. And yet I wonder if she could take good care ofherself.
5 She left a mess. Her bathroom is an embarrassmentof damp towels, rusted shaving blades, hair in the sink, and nearly empty tubesof toothpaste. I bring a box of big black garbage bags upstairs. Eye shadow,face cream, nail polish — all go into the trash. I dump drawers, sweep shelvesclear and clean the sink. When I am finished, it is as neat and impersonal as ahotel bathroom.
6 In her bedroom I find mismatched socks under herbed and purple pants on the closet floor. Desk drawers are filled with schoolpapers, filed by year and subject. I catch myself reading through poems andessays, admiring high scores on tests and reading her name, printed or typedneatly in the upper right-hand corner of each paper. I pack the desk contentsinto a box. Six months, I think. I will give her six months to collect herbelongings, and then I will throw them all away. That is fair. Grown-ups payfor storage.
7 I have to pause at the books. Comic books, teenfiction, romantic novels, historical novels, and textbooks. A lifetime ofreading; each book beloved. I want to be practical, to stuff them in papersacks for the used bookstore. But I love books as much as she does, so I stackthem onto a single bookshelf to deal with later.
8 I go for her clothes. Dresses, sweaters, and shoesshe hasn’t worn since seventh grade are placed into garbage bags. I am a plagueof locusts emptying the closet. Two piles grow to clumsy heights: one forcharity, the other trash.
9 There are more shoes, stuffed animals, large andsmall posters, hair bands, and pink hair curlers. The job grows larger thelonger I am at it. How can one girl collect so much in only 18 years?
10 I stuff the garbage bags until the plastic strains.I haul them down the stairs, two bags at a time. Donations to charity go intothe trunk of my car; trash goes to the curb. I’m earning myself sweat and soreshoulders.
11 She left the bedroom a ridiculous mess, thecomforter on the floor, the sheets tossed aside. I strip off the comforter,blanket, sheets, and pillows. Once she starts feeding coins into laundrymachines, she’ll appreciate the years of clean clothes I’ve provided for free.
12 I will turn her room into a crafts room. Or createthe fancy guest room I’ve always wanted.
13 I turn the bed over. A large brown envelope ismarked "DO NOT THROW AWAY." I open it. More papers. I dump thecontents onto the floor. There are old family photographs, letters, greetingcards, and love notes from us to her. There are comics clipped from newspapersand magazines. Every single item in this envelope has passed from our hands tohers. These are all things that we gave her. Suddenly, I feel very emotional.
14 "DO NOTTHROW AWAY".
15 My kid — my clutter bug — knows me too well. As Iread through the cards and notes, I think maybe the truck wasn’t such a badidea, after all. Maybe it helps her to feel less small in a big world.
16 I reverse myself and bring back the garbage bagsfrom the car and the curb. Clothes and shoes go back into the closet. I remakethe bed and pile it with stuffed animals. My husband comes home and calls upthe stairs.
17 "Just straightening up," I tell him."Can you find some boxes for her stuff?"
18 He brings up boxes from the basement.
19 "She left a mess," he says.
20 "I don’t mind," I reply. Silence.
21 Then he says softly, "She’s not comingback." I feel my throat tighten at the sadness in his voice. I try hard tokeep back my tears.
22 My little baby, my dependent child, isn’t comingback. But someday my daughter, the independent woman, will return home. Tokensof her childhood will await her. So will we, with open arms.

